Mandy,

Alright firstly, to make you happy, I have taken that picture off. Irregardless of whether it's your boyfriend or not. Which really isn't.

We used to be really good friends. What happened between us could be said to be a sad thing, and I see now how easily it is to break a friendship. But I am glad we both moved on to find greater friends and are leading better lives now.

I had to delete those comments you made on my Facebook wall. Because it is a tarnish to my name right in the face. The other time you assumed that the comment I made about a psychology scholarship was about you. Truth is, I had no idea at all you had one, and all I did was make a random remark about somebody else with the scholarship, who is, in fact, in university now. You didn't have to go around telling people I was talking about you, but you did. Fact was, you never even crossed my mind.

You have never crossed my mind in a really long time. So why do you have to go around spoiling the image others have of me by making me look like a jealous bitch? What is your problem against me, seriously. It's been nearly 2 years and we have never kept in contact. At the time when you thought my "scholarship" comment was about you, you really brought me down. Great, now people think I'm a jealous bitch who's jealous of you and your "great and glamorous" life. I was angry, needless to say. Because, WHY DO YOU HAVE TO KEEP ASSUMING WHATEVER I SAID WAS ABOUT YOU?!

But still, I sent you a really long text explaining things to you. You didn't reply and to be honest I wasn't expecting any. If you could open your eyes and see, I'm being very nice and polite, and really NOT interfering in your life at all.

What is your grudge against me, really?

You say I can't let things go. Tell me honestly, who's the one who can't?

My previous post MAY sound like you. Now that I read it again, it does sound a bit like you. But seriously, that's not you. And fyi, I got ALL the pictures off the internet. And by internet I do not mean Facebook. I repeat again, you haven't crossed my mind in a really long time!

I'm really gonna say this again, leave the past behind. Move on. We already moved on, I already did. I do not care at all what you do, how you behave, because that's you.

We're different people. Just stop behaving like a psycho and assume that whatever I say is of you. From the 4 years of friendship we had, you should have known me enough to know that if I were to really talk about you, I would have included your name inside the post. You know I'm straightforward that way. Or maybe you forgot.

You know how now I'm really terrified of you. I can't seem to show any of my opinions publicly without having to worry about you thinking it's you I'm talking about. Like I said before, I still treat you as a friend, (not as low a level as acquaintance but well, if you want to think of me that way) and when I see your updates on Facebook, my mind still goes "My friend is so pretty in the model shots!"

I have nothing against you. Yet you keep thinking otherwise.

I don't know how to say this anymore to try to convince you. I give up. Just really, know that in my mind you're still the best friend in secondary school I loved, and it's a fact that can't be changed. Despite us going separate ways, you're still my friend always.

***OKAY so Mandy is not convinced, and I shall not waste any of my time and effort trying to explain things to her. Thanks Mandy, for trying to screw my life when I have never done anything to you. For all the many things you did to me in the past, I bore no grudges, so why are you still treating me like this. I know you're great, you're awesome, you're a model and everything but that doesn't give you the right to backstab me and spoil my name like this. The many things you used to do to me, they can't even be counted with my fingers. Thanks for hurting me this way.***

If you're a female, do you feel like almost all the good looking boys are taken by average looking girls who can't hold a candle to their boyfriends?

The logic is so so simple.

Guys go for the S.E.X, and girls go for the M.O.N.E.Y.

Is it not true? Don't come telling me there is true love because so far the only times when I see true love is on TV! Boy falls in love with girl, they fight they break up, end up still together. That isn't even true love anyway. Unless you're telling me Snow White and Cinderella OR EVEN BEAUTY AND THE BEAST.

I know of a girl who broke up with her extremely loving and quite good looking boyfriend for another extremely ugly guy. There was nothing wrong in the previous relationship, and totally NOTHING WRONG with her previous boyfriend. Like I said, he was extremely loving.

The girl is very pretty by the way! And then this hideous looking guy came hippity-hop into her life, and knowing jolly well she had a boyfriend, started to flirt with her. And she herself flirted with him knowing jolly well she has a boyfriend!

Skip skip skip to the part where...

She broke up with her lovely and nice-looking boyfriend for a hideous toad.

Because:

1. Toad is richer.

2. Toad is older.

3. Toad is more educated.

4. Toad can give her what she wants.

5. Toad is nice to her too.

6. Toad has a car.

I won't date a guy with very horrid teeth. No matter how rich he is. It's the 21st century doesn't he have the mind to go get braces?!

Can you imagine kissing a guy with horrible teeth that has the left middle tooth protrude more than the right middle tooth, right tiger tooth longer than the left one, with two pimple scars and a curled upper lip almost reaching the tip of the nose?

Making out.

No seriously. This guy should either go get braces done, or stop smiling with his teeth.

Enough of digressing. Point is, this pretty girl went for this ugly toad because he is rich! He has the ability to buy her flowers, buy her new technology toys, AND HE DRIVES. Because looks won't last forever.......

BUT MONEY WON'T LAST FOREVER TOO!!!

Yes yes he may be filthy rich now and he may be filthy stinking rich for the rest of his life, BUT HE WILL BE UGLY FOREVER.

Imagine in future when girl and toad have children, some kid in school is gonna tell their child, "MY DADDY VERY HANDSOME LAST TIME! HE USED TO LOOK LIKE JOSH DUHAMEL!" And then he proceeds to show their child a photo of how his daddy looked like before turning all crinkly and old!

.....

The child's gonna go, "HUH! MY DADDY LAST TIME MORE HANDSOME LO!!" And out he whips a photograph of his daddy PROUDLY.

The kid with the handsome dad is gonna exclaim, "EEEEE where got handsome?! So ugly! Why the teeth like that one!" and continues to admire his handsome daddy's photograph.

Not wanting to be defeated, the child will scream, "SO WHAT! MY DADDY RICHER! WITH MONEY YOU CAN GET WHATEVER YOU WANT, YOU CAN GET A PRETTY WOMAN JUST LIKE HOW MY DADDY GOT MY MOTHER!"

Seriously young child, face it, your dad is an ugly toad and your mother is a slut. But thankfully you have a pretty mother to make up for the ugly genes from your dad, therefore you don't look so ugly.

Point is point is point is...

SHE ONLY WANTS THE UGLY MAN'S MONEY! Why would somebody give up a perfectly good relationship for another but downgrade the looks of the guy? Because can upgrade the financial status of the guy!

Luckily this ugly guy has the money, if not don't think he'll ever get a girl, because his current girl is only soaking up his riches.

Or else, the girl has very low self-esteem and is craving for nothing but a sense of security. Ugly guys will never cheat on you! Because they are too ugly and no other girls would want them. Tadah~ There you go. Sense of security.

I am NOT the kind of person who judges people by their looks okay by the way! I have absolutely NOTHING against ugly people and I'm ranting all these just to show my disapproval of pretty girls making use of ugly rich guys for their money! Love is bullshit for materialistic girls like that.

Beanie has been such a naughty puppy. Today I suffered like dozens of scratches and I believe I am experiencing internal bleeding because of him.

I bathed him, made sure he smelled nice and then I went to blow-dry him. But that damn dog wouldn't stop struggling because he doesn't like to be blow-dried and then he finally escaped after biting on my hand so hard I thought my nerves were going to break!!

It's not so bad that he escaped, but he ran around the house drippin' wet and he ran REAAAAALLY FAST and then he purposely came and pushed me so hard I think I'm having bruises now. And then that monster dogs pounces on me and bites my hair and won't let go and and then jumps on me like as if I am a jumping mattress!

I AM SUFFERING I HATE BATHING HIM.

Somebody, how do I control this monster dog and stop him from pouncing on me like as if I'm a chew-toy?!

Miserablegirl123

Watching the footages of the September 11, 2001 attack brings out a lot of sad emotions and all I want is really simple.

I pray that incidents like this will never happen again, and that everybody I know and around me, would be safe and happy. Including all the ones who are far away in another land, I pray for all your safety and happiness. Miss all of you who are so far away.

I'm sad today.

I'm sorry.

Finally Grace and I went swimming again. More like, soaking in the water, but we went to the pool.