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Revamped A-messybeauty! See that really big big picture up there? That woman in there is the classic messy beauty omg! She has that messed up hair and she's so pretty. And I am blogging like a dumb blonde bimbo.
It just dawned on me that the 9pm show on channel 8 is to actually tell Singaporeans not to get hooked on gambling, because of the newly opened casino. Seriously? Nice one! And the drama's not bad too, just that it's really sooooo predictable. I still don't understand why we need to have a casino. Didn't we lead good lives before having a casino? Not like the casino's gonna help me in any way, as if I'd be living in a bungalow after the casino's opened. Something totally random. I'm so ugly even plastic surgery can't help me!
YEAHH! I don't have an ass anymore!! School is tiring the ass out of me!!
You know what, kids are turning into monsters. Where have all the well-behaved little angels gone? Not to heaven, they just grew up and somehow produced monsters. How did this ever happen? How come generations change so damn fast? I'm only 18, yet I look at those 17 year olds this year, I see the apparent difference between our years. Just 12 months, 365 days. And holy mama the difference between the 92 batch and 93 batch is horrifying! Children now are using vulgarities at the tender age of 7. No, maybe 5. Children now are picking up smoking at the age of 12. No, maybe 10. Children now are having sex at the age of 14. No, maybe 12. You get what I mean? Where did civilisation go? You do realise that if we don't do anything to stop this scenario from worsening, we will be faced with heartless stupid brats in the future right? Imagine 10 years down the road you have children, and because of this fucking ugly scenario, your children actually mature at a really young age. They smoke and take drugs at 7, fuck at 10 (maybe the puberty process will speed up in future), first word not "mama" or "papa", but "FUCK". And at 20, when they have all grown up, they disregard their parents (meaning you), and throw you to old folks homes. WORSE PART? The nurses in the old folks homes are the younger generation too. And they have no fucking sense of respect, which can already be seen now in the 93 batch, and they give you HELLLLLLL. I tell you, you would be thinking WTF WTF WTF and can't wait for the fucking world to end. Then again, maybe it's a blessing if we perish in 2012. Because of. These fucking 93-2010 imbeciles!
That's what I've learnt so far ever since 2010 started. I initially thought everything's better this year, and my life was off to an awesome start. Things doesn't look so much similar now. It's like I finally see what's going on. I still can't blend in. I still can't blend in with the people I have to be around with. Meaning, my class. Maybe it's because we're not properly settled and stuff, and also because I'm always running off with the other retainees. But whenever I'm with the class I feel, weird. It's like, the new J1s don't seem to want to be friends. That upsets me. We're not intimidating, we're friendly. But how come nobody seems to see it? Thinking of how I should have been promoted if I had studied hard last year makes me really upset and remorseful. I did this upon myself, and if this year is going to be a bad one, I have nobody to blame but myself. I still hope I can blend in with the class though. ): Then again, I feel really really lonely. My friends talk about stuff that I can't bring myself to take interest in. It doesn't matter whether I'm there or not, I can't blend in with them too. My old friends from last year feel like I don't want them anymore and sometimes they see me and give me faces. I'm really upset. I don't even know what I want to be now, don't even know who I am. Fucking friendless.
I give CNY face, I say I'm happy even though I'm sian as hell.
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL, NO MATTER WHAT RACE YOU ARE! Enjoy your holiday!
Don't get me wrong, I am not hating CNY because I have school work to do and exams to study for. In fact, I don't mind! Truth is, CNY is overrated, just like Christmas!
The CNY songs stay the same, the decorations stay the same (just that the animals are different each year), the CNY tradition stays the same, the relatives are the same(that's the part I hate), the routine stays the same.
Isn't it getting really mundane?!
I'm not so rich lah, can afford to fly overseas during CNY. I don't even FEEL the CNY tension. It's just like, wow holidays! That's all. Who the hell would look forward to CNY goodies and those fucking ang baos. Only children would. Grow up! Only children are happy over new clothes, and ang baos, and CNY goodies. Maybe if you're a bimbo you'd be happy over new clothes too but let's not go there.
I'm sick of shopping for CNY. I'm sick of seeing bloody relatives who can walk past me as if I'm transparent. I'm sick of fucking relatives who fucking look down on me.
Now I retain, are you guys happy and satisfied?! Sadistic bunch of people I call relatives..
Super mad now. Tomorrow's CNY eve and omg HI relatives HI cousins bloody hell. Best part, my family always arrives the earliest, and those bloody relatives just come late and make some grand appearance like as if they're some big shot.
Not all my relatives are like I mentioned, some are nice. But some seriously, go fuck yourself. I don't mean to be so mean on CNY but they really should just fuck themselves.
I don't understand why people want to wait 5 minutes for a lift, when they can just climb 3 flights of stairs in 1 minute max.
I saw a woman waiting like mad for a lift, when it was at the 8th floor. I took the stairs instead, imagine it's so mad crazy to wait 5 minutes for a lift when I can reach upstairs in 30seconds!
I reached, and the lift was at the 7th loor, happy waiting lady! The lift here is super damn slowwwww.
The last bit of hope and faith I had in you is now gone.
Chinese New Year is coming goddamnit it's that time of the year which I hate the most! Don't you all hate CNY?!
I don't see any reason to look forward to CNY, fine the ang baos are prolly the only good thing about it but CNY still sucks.
CNY is a time for reunion am I right? But if you've been seeing your goddamn relatives whole year round, what's the point of CNY? Pardon me for saying GODDAMN relatives I know not all relatives suck but mine suck super badly.
Or, if you are in the same situation as me, you see your relatives only ONCE a year and that ONCE is during CNY, WHAT'S THE POINT!? It's like you're all seeing each other for the sake of CNY. There's no genuine feeling of seeing one another. Which totally beats the whole point of reunion.
Some relatives won't stop asking like how are you doing in school, how are your results, blahblahblah. Those are fine, just kpo relatives. Some relatives (LIKE MINE) will try to shoot you and make you feel damn pathetic like as if you're useless. They are bewildered by the fact that you did well for O levels, and smirk at you when you do really badly in school exams. They think their children (Your cousins!) are the best in whatever.
W.....hatever.
Typical haolian Singaporeans. -.-
Today, I did something that will haunt me for the rest of my life. Today, I squashed a lizard with my bare foot, spilling all its guts and intestines.
I am so freaked out I actually killed something, I killed a life! I've been pondering about it whole day I'm very upset. Imagine the lizard could have been happily catching insects now, and I killed it. ): I will never ever forgive myself for this. Seriously.
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A story of two boys.
I like you, I don't dare to go near you. I hide my face whenever I see you. You'll never like a girl like me.
I like you, I am always looking out for you. I like it when you call me out of the blue. I'm happy to see your name appear on my vibrating phone.
I like you, I think you're really cool. And I learnt you have a nice personality. I like to see you around but it gets my heart pounding.
I like you, I always want to talk to you. Sometimes you're nice to me, but sometimes you show me attitudes. It makes me upset but I really really think you're very very cute especially when you smile.
I like you, but we're so different. You're from the cool gang of people, I'm the quiet lonely nerd. But can we ever be best of friends?
I like you, but it's over. You think I'm irritating but all I want is to just talk to you. Do you think you would ever like me again?
Completed 5 days of orientation and amazingly it was so high, unlike last year. And orientation was more than fun for me this year with my friends! I mean, apparently you're high with your already-known friends. So, meeting new people wasn't tough.
This week has been busy with orientation and leaving friends.
Two friends of mine are gonna leave town and god knows when they'll be back again. Rachel and Abel. One to New Zealand and one to USA.
Rachel and I haven't been close till recently after our Germany trip. And especially since we're both retained, I got to spend more time with her and know her more. I'm sad she's leaving, I so feel like pouring my feelings out for her. I will miss her dearly. But she promised me something afterall. (:
Abel, go "party in the USA~" (Miley Cyrus) I got nth to say because I told him to come SA but he didn't! So, bye la. Haha.
Music is distracting me from my train of thought and I don't know what I wanna type now.
DIE ALL THE BOOMZ PEOPLE DIE. LIVE YOUR LIFE LIKE RIS LOW.
J BOOMZ!
What is it with attention-seeking bimbos WTF.
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